Haiti

Just wanted to send out a prayer to the country of Haiti, and to hope everyone donates and helps support the relief fund, for this country in need. If you live under a rock, Haiti, was hit with a 7.0 massive earthquake. Which scares me in general, after being in like 10 earthquakes, (small ones) in Tokyo Japan. I was terrified, and I can't imagine what they are going through. With all the causalities, and homes crushed, etc. Mother Nature can be no joke, and I'm sending out prayers! Sorry for the disturbing images at the top of this entry, but sometimes we need to be disturbed to wake up, and get involved!

TIP: WANNA GET INVOLVED, EVERY DOLLAR COUNTS. TEXT THE WORD "HAITI" TO 90999. IT IS 10 BUCKS THAT GOES TO THE RELIEF FUND! IT IS SAFE, EASY, AND GETS ADDED TO YOUR WIRELESS BILL!

Who Would Have Thunk?

I am so popular in my neighborhood, everyone, can't get enough of J.R. Whittington. All the smiles, the winks, the hair flinging, the women are all about me. NOT!!!!!!!! They don't pay me any attention, people only know me, because of Brewster. He is officialy a chick magnet! They stop, they wink, they stare, they smile, they flirt, "what a cute dog", "is he a yorkie", "I love his winter coat", "I love your dog"!!!! No love for J.R. Whittiington, only the stud on the leash! He has the women in my neighborhood wrapped around his paw! I know my dog is cute, but I never expected this much attention! He is the mac daddy, and is amazing, at his way with beautiful women. Not only does he have all the women, but the female dogs, love him as well. I am the most popular dog owner in Brooklyn, Brewster, the ladies man,,,well the ladies dog! Who would have thunk?

Letters To The Jail

When I was a young boy, around the age of 14, I had many responsibilities. One of them was to babysit my three little first cousins. They are good kids, so it was easy to do. I love my family, and my cousins more than I might say at times. I fondly remember watching them grow up to be the outstanding young men they have become! I remember there smiling faces, and there spoiled cries. I remember the games we played as kids, and I remember just connecting with my cousins, and trying so hard to be a good role model. Now my cousins are grown up men with kids. The middle child of three boys, I used to baby sit, is now going to prison. Where did we go wrong as a family? Why is he living up to the statics that people have placed on us? I know how tough it must be to grow up, and deal with your peers. As I said before, I remember getting jumped as a kid on the way home from school. I remember people trying to get me to sell drugs. I remember me wanting to fit in, but being so different, and not stooping down to peer presure. All of us, as family, well most of us, have overcome that, and become amazing pillars of the community. To see one of them fail, is so hard for me to take! He went to college for a year, and is so spoiled and can have whatever he wants! Anything he wanted, his life to be, he could have become. Now, he is in prison for three to six years, which is a terrible dark place. You do the crime, I guess you have to do the time! I just wish he would have went down a different avenue of life. As he goes down to the jail, leaving his 3 month old baby, alone, without a father, for who knows how long. I send a prayer, to GOD, that he finds a trade, and comes out learning from his mistakes. I don't want to lecture my little cousin, I'm here to, hopefully give him hope, to do the right thing. I'm sure he knows what he has done is wrong! I just will never understand why, he would do that to himself? Now I write letters to jail!

Faith and Fear

GOD, wants me to get the message about being fearful of the unknown. About having faith in him, and not to worry, that he is there for me! You see, I visited a new church this past Sunday, Emmanuel Baptist Church, which I enjoyed very much. The same message that was preached at The Brooklyn Tabernacle, was preached to me again from Emmanuel Baptist Church! It was about fear, which if you read my blog, is my biggest problem. The opposite of fear is faith, and I guess I need a whole lot of it. I keep getting the same message at different churches, and I just wanted to let GOD know that I hear him loud and clear. I'm working on more faith, and not to worry, so that what he has set me forth to do, I can do, clearly, and with a clean heart! I have a couple friends, who have been blogging about fear as well, and it is a common thread, in many of friends. Which is a slight comfort to me, and I am learning more and more everyday that I am not alone. I just need to have faith, and trust that GOD will not leave me! I know this, he has never left me behind, and for some reason I can't get it to stick. I'm writing this blog entry, as a testimony of how I am going to change this in mind, no matter how hard it is! Our GOD is an Awesome GOD!

OUCH!!!!!!!

I ate cookies, brownies, cakes, potato chips, and many other things for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I enjoyed watching t.v. laying around, playing with my nieces, and doing absolutely nothing! I came back to New York City, and tried to slowly go to the gym, and do some cardio, which I don't know how in one and half weeks time I got so out of shape. Since I worked up to this point, which was yesterday, I thought I slowly brought myself back to the point where I was ready to train hard. I had my first training session back from the holidays, and my trainer is on a mission. You see, we only have eight more sessions left, meeting twice a week, before, I can't train anymore. I start my acting school at the end of the month, which is intensive Monday through Friday 9am to 5pm! Knowing this information, I think my trainer, wants to kill me before my closing date with him. He yelled at me about my diet, and not what you think, about my bad eating habits. You see I had to write down everything I eat, and give it to him. When you were a dancer and called fat your whole life, you tend to not want to eat as much as you should. He wants me to eat so much more, since, I want to gain muscle, minus the cookies, cakes, potato chips, just more good foods in general. Ugh, and this getting into my brain, and is a challenge for me. I think he fixed the problem, since, I don't like to eat as much, he made it, so I have to do a protein shake at night, and in the a.m., along with my meals. This I think I can handle, but we shall see! Anyway, my trainer, gave me the workout of my life the other day. I can barely do any of the excericises, and he kept making me circuit train, with lifting as well as kick boxing, and cardio, pushing me so hard. This is what I wanted right? Why do I feel like I'm going to throw up? Why does it hurt so much? No Pain No Gain right? Therefore, I woke up, and can't move at all. I almost texted my roommate to help me put on my clothes this a.m. My body is so sore, and now I am heading to get a massage. I think my personal trainer (Who I love btw) is on CRACK!!!!!!!

The Search is on...

Everyone knows how much I love the music ministry at The Brooklyn Tabernacle, and I have been going there for many years. GOD is all over that place, and musically there is none like this, beautiful sanctity of a church! Even the people singing next to you, are awesome, well, sometimes. When the music cuts out, and it is accapella, and just our voices united as one, is what gets me the most at The Brooklyn Tabernacle. However, other spiritual things I am searching for is missing from this church. Some of the things they preach I strongly disagree with. I'm not going to agree with everything my church preaches, but there are some things that I just can't handle anymore! I will leave this cryptic part of my entry at that. However, I do plan on visiting, and seeing The Brooklyn Tabernacle, as much as I can. I am on a search through out New York City, hopefully Brooklyn, (Don't want to travel to far) for a new church home! I want a place smaller than Brooklyn Tabernacle, where I can get a sense of community. I don't need the music ministry to be as amazing, but they do have to be good enough for me to survive the service(LOL). I am sure I can find what I want in this big city that never sleeps. If I don't, Brooklyn Tabernacle will be there, and I will continue to go there, but I will never join. I am just in the middle ground with this church, as awesome as it may be. Today I am going to Emmanuel Baptist Church, right up the street from my apartment. Pray for me and my journey to find the perfect fit for me!

Happy New Year

I know this is a new year, and everyone has the big resolutions, to change parts of there lives. Hahahaha, I laugh only because nine times out of ten, those big lists don't work. However, I don't want to bring anyone down, you can change. My big thing is if you are going to make a change, why wait until the New Year? Just do the damn the thing, when you decide you don't like whatever it is that you are doing! That is why this year, my New Years Resolution began, whenever, I wanted to do or change something in my life. Everyone laughed at me as I went to the gym the day before, the day before that, and New Years Day. "Just wait until the New Year, it is the holidays enjoy it"! Yes, I agree, and I will enjoy the holidays, but I'm serious about gaining 10 more pounds of muscle, so I begin now. I also feel like, the New Year began for me, when the tour closed. I had a long list of things I wanted to do, and change, when I got to New York City. I went out and began that journey, and am now doing it! Yes, I can say it is a new year, and it is 2010, but my changes, happen all year around. Why wait? Procrastinate, and never do anything I set forth to doing. Yes I am human, and I do fail at things I set forth to do, (Such as learning Spanish.UGH)and when I fail, I pray, and just try all over again! "If at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again". Such is life as a man on the planet we call Earth! Nevertheless, good luck my friends on your resolutions, and may all your dreams come true in 2010!